So, that’s the first payment out the way. Good. It’ll be the same amount every week and I’ll expect to receive it every week even if you say you’re ill. The only time you won’t have to pay, or make excuses, is during August, when I go on holiday and you go quietly mad – but don’t even think about trying to phone me.
As you can hear- I aim for clipped yet fragrant, think BBC World Service with just a hint of dove grey silk – I’m not the type to get het up, and you won’t ever see me getting het up, either to let you in or show you out. I expect you to hang up your coat, yes, there, in the cabinet, next to that heavy green one, and the letters, and the photographs, and all of the other, crumpled-up-then-smoothed-out pieces of paper that now seem so painfully light-
Or alternatively, I want to see you get hung up on those very tender fragments of another life, some parts of which are now pushing their way into this one.
In fact, if you close your eyes and then open your eyes this could be Vienna.
This could be a haven from the excessive, swirling, glaze of Gustav Klimt who also lived in Vienna at the same time that you did, but at the same time not in the Vienna that you did.
This could be the place – in London or Vienna – where the scratches on the cabinet’s surface lead to the scratch below the surface, and where a letter or a photograph is actually an antiquated splinter-
Still fresh enough to cause a wound
Or fresh as a wound
Or Egyptian honey
Or a bee trapped in amber
Or a splinter that the flesh has now grown over – except that if it goes septic then your head might fall off-
Thud! And then it rolls across the parquet in a bloody trail of memories…
That’s a lot to get hung up on.
Let’s leave it there.
Susan Finlay is the Freud Museum’s new Writer-in-Residence. Over the next six months she will be using objects from Freud’s collection as associative prompts through which to write about her own, real and fictitious memories. She will produce a series of photographic and textual vignettes. Some of these will be featured on the blog, and some will be used as the basis for an alternative audio guide. The guide will be read by Sharon Kivland and Lara Pawson, and available to download as an MP3.